Hey Kel,
Tonight, as I was closing down the store, I mentioned to Ron
that I was worried about tomorrow. I told him you always called me and sang to
me. I stood there crying asking him, “How am I going to get through this with
no phone call. She always called and sang.”
“Well, Marla….,” he said with that totally John Wayne twang
of his, “just think about her purty singin to ya tomorrow.”
“I said she sang to me, Ron. I never said it was good.”
Then we both started to laugh and he reminded me to keep
laughing. He told me to try and find the laughter in the middle of all this
swirling pain. This made me think of horse poop.
Do you remember how I have always loved the smell of horse
poop? It is one of the best smells on earth. It makes me think of Aunt Meta and
the ranch, riding Pokey and playing outside all summer long. I absolutely love
the stuff. I got to thinking tonight how this whole dead sister thing is such a
pile of crap. Then I thought about what Ron said and about horse poop and well,
maybe I am just focusing on the wrong type of crap, because I love horse poop
and it’s definitely crap. Somehow though, I seem to be able to find wonderful
things in it, like memories I cherish. Just the smell of it makes me smile or
tear up with happy thoughts. I have even seen wildflowers sprouting from Dunnie’s
poop. No seriously, sometimes when I am out walking with her in the back
pasture, I have come across old piles of her poop with beautiful, delicate
wildflowers coming straight out of the middle of them. How could anyone not
love the stuff?
Do you think that’s possible? Could I find wildflowers in
the pile you left my life in? If I ever stop crying for more than five minutes,
I just might try to ride this new horse with no name.
Please come home now.
I love you,
Me
4 comments:
Marla, I've been so wrapped up in my Son's recent illness, I haven't had time to tell you how sorry I am about you losing your Sister. I know it can't be easy for you. Here's hoping you find wildflowers in all the poop that's been heaped around you. Bless you.
mmm horse poop....it is a unique smell you know...and do keep laughing...it helps...smiles.
Has it occurred to you that you were a wild flower in the poop of Kel's life?
I don't know if you read the comment I left you yesterday about chicken poop. But I have come to the conclusion that poop plays and INORDINATELY large role in your life. Amiright?
Speaking of poop... (how often do we get to say that? Well, maybe not you so much, 'cause I'm guessing that's often. But me? Believe it or not, not that often. I think. I'll ask the kids later)
Anyway... speaking of poop. One time I read a blog and a girl was talking about how, when she was a kid, her dad used told her she was such an optimist that if she opened her bedroom door and there was a huge pile of horse poop she would get excited and start digging for the pony!
Girl, you're just digging for your ponies.
Also? Chicken poop!
And now, because of you, I have used the word 'poop' more times in two days than I normally do in two years. Or at least two months. Certainly two weeks. Yeah, most two-day periods.
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